6 weeks had gone by since I began my exam prep. 6 long weeks, trapped within the four walls of my room, only to step out occasionally for survival and to fulfil my destiny (i.e. sit for the exam). I don't think many people can understand how painful and demotivating those times were. Many times, one began to question one's existence and purpose. But with each exam paper being completed, the painful journey became shorter. Yet, the agony continued to increase further. Towards the end, the spirit had already reached a new low. It was getting more and more difficult to memorise anything. Looking back, I couldn't understand now how I manage to cram in all those stuffs or how I can remember numerous equations and pages and pages of essays.
Day in, day out, I stuck to the same routine, 24/7. Sleep at 2am. Sometimes 3am. Wake up before 9am. Try to study each day with properly set out targets though I seldom meet my target of course.
The final paper had to be the most depressing paper I have taken throughout the whole process. Had the paper been held from the very beginning, my spirit will be destroyed to bits and there will be no more hope for the rest. It was not like I didn't read for it. I have been reading those stuffs at least thrice. Given more time, I still wouldn't be able to do it. So, what went wrong? Till now, I cannot figure it out. But it's over. That's a fact which I cannot change. I only hope that what I wrote did actually made sense despite not being sure of the final answer. Oh, and I had a paper cut on my wrist. That must have been a sign...
Unhappiness aside, having completed the final paper, a burden was lifted. Suddenly I found myself with time again in hand. Time to do proper, normal human things. Like shopping for grocery, taking a walk, lunching with friends etc. However, at that very moment, my whole body began to ache. I have been telling myself that I cannot fall sick during the exam period and it cooperated. Now, it's telling me I have to stop the strainous activity. Yet, here I am writing at 2am in the morning. Staying up late had became a habit which I will get rid of soon. Tomorrow.
And now some nice post-exam pictures. I know...it's always about food with me. I dunno why.
Gammon steak, Salmon
Lamb kebab
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