At around 5pm today, Shiro left. I was the only one who saw him breathing his last. He had been having breathing difficulty the whole day. When it happened, his tail suddenly moved upward. So did his head. I thought he was responding to treatment. I was wrong. I kept calling him but his eyes were already closing. He did not manage to close his eyes fully.
As I sat there looking at him, his last moments kept replaying in my head. All the signs pointing towards his impending death. Inability to close his eyes. Continuous gasp for air. Fleas leaving his body.
I watched dad bury him. It was drizzling. The rain started not so long after he left. Was he crying or was it god?
Now, I will forever regret my decision to try to save him. Every vet told me there's no hope. I was selfish and kept him suffering till his last second. I am the worst pet owner ever.
As I sat there looking at him, his last moments kept replaying in my head. All the signs pointing towards his impending death. Inability to close his eyes. Continuous gasp for air. Fleas leaving his body.
I watched dad bury him. It was drizzling. The rain started not so long after he left. Was he crying or was it god?
Now, I will forever regret my decision to try to save him. Every vet told me there's no hope. I was selfish and kept him suffering till his last second. I am the worst pet owner ever.
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