Two days ago was my birthday but it's not the year I want to celebrate. Popo is no longer around. While we never celebrate my birthday based on the Gregorian calendar, today still reminds me of her.
On every 5th day of CNY, popo will come to my house to celebrate my birthday. I get an angpow from her every year. RM50 each time in recent years. Yet this year, she did not make it to my birthday. Initially, my plan was to celebrate it on Sat as I did not take leave on that day. I planned to go over to her house due to her conditions. None of the plan materialised. Though I did go over to her house, it was at the wake. I am not sure how I can go through this day anymore without remembering her wake.
I think about her all the time. The day she left. Her look as she laid lifeless on the hospital bed. Her voice when she called out to my cousins. Sometimes, I will think about the time when she was younger and still healthy. That was the popo I missed and failed to cherish.
On every 5th day of CNY, popo will come to my house to celebrate my birthday. I get an angpow from her every year. RM50 each time in recent years. Yet this year, she did not make it to my birthday. Initially, my plan was to celebrate it on Sat as I did not take leave on that day. I planned to go over to her house due to her conditions. None of the plan materialised. Though I did go over to her house, it was at the wake. I am not sure how I can go through this day anymore without remembering her wake.
I think about her all the time. The day she left. Her look as she laid lifeless on the hospital bed. Her voice when she called out to my cousins. Sometimes, I will think about the time when she was younger and still healthy. That was the popo I missed and failed to cherish.
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